My Marriage Journey

On March 19th, I tried to be brave to marry with a man who I didn't know more before. For more less 4 months, I tried to follow the scream of my heart in choosing him. Finally, I chose him to stand in my side to declare the vow. 

Nobody knows, I was on very difficult choice before finally choose him. I felt in love to a man whom I know for almost 5 years. But, I didn't know about him, about his feeling. One night, I called him and I told him everything about my marriage plan with someone whom I chose. He kept cool, I didn't know may be he kept everything hidden from him to me. I cried, I tried to explain to him about my feeling to him during our friendship running. Everything was so late, I was engaged and it could be cancelled and I didn't regret of that. 

I know that life is full of choices and you should choose, so that love, and I should choose also. 

I know that I don't know the man who wants to marry me is better or badder than him. Is he the best or the worst or my choice. I don't care, in that time I just believe the one and only reason I choose to marry soon is that, that's the right way to make me far and far from zinah. Well the things that I really afraid is that, because nobody can give guarantee to keep someone from zinah.

Am I happy with my marriage? I will share here because I know that nobody knows this blog, but some days, when I am not in this world anymore, I just want people know that I have written something to be something to people to learn.